Hello Confused-
There are a lot of great responses here so I wasn't sure if you needed another response. But having been through it myself I felt I should respond.

I keep rereading your message and what strikes me is your comment "I just can't seem to get past it to a find a place of forgiveness. What I should I do?"

Given that it's been 10 months, you have probably already devoted a lot of thought, energy and emotion to the sitatution. By asking what you should do, you seem to be ready to move forward, but unsure as to how. Seeking help/ guidence is a step in the right direction. There must be so much more to the picture, all hard to convey via email. If any of these email responses have struck a cord with you, following up with that coach would be a great way to gain some clarity and calm while navigating through this journey before you.

My aspiration is to help you see life's solutions rather than life's problems. You can find me "Coach Cheri" under the Browse Coaches Tab.

Warmly,
Coach Cheri